It's Not Like I'm Trying On Shoes - 11/22/20

Tomorrow is my "exchange" surgery as it's referred to in the breast cancer world. The day that my Plastic Surgeon removes the saline filled tissue expanders that have been in my chest since 8/31 and replaces them with my permanent implants. Of course, my brain has been going NON-STOP for the past few weeks and it woke me up in FULL FORCE today. What if I don't like them? What if they don't look right? I told a friend this morning as we were chatting back and forth through Messenger, "it's not like I'm trying on a pair of shoes and can return them if they don't feel comfortable or look right on me". What if? What if? What if? This is a pretty big deal and I don't want to regret my decision. But it's too late to turn back now.......I want these expanders out and I want this surgery to be over. I want 2020 to be over, as I know the entire world does too; but for me and my family even more so than ever. So, please think good thoughts for me tomorrow as I get my "new shoes" and pray that they fit me and look right on me.

P.S. Tim will be updating my CB page when I'm out of surgery. This one is an outpatient procedure so we will be home tomorrow evening at some point in time depending on how I do.